Covid, Mass protests and lack of leadership.
I'm tired. I'm not going to lie and act like I've seen one and upmteenth video of another black man being killed by law enforcement. Since Trayvon Martin, I stopped feeding into the the media glamorizing the death of minorities.
The "outrage" depicted by these large conglomerates that contribute to systemic racism is disgusting. I try to find different news outlets with integrity and journalism. The same goes for bloggers, etc. My day job in Corporate America is a constant reminder that the system is rigged. Racism is rampant. So what else is new?
My heart hurts. My heart is heavy. As a result, I don't have the slightest clue on how to talk to my daughter about race. Recently I realized how sheltered she's been when she considered a commercial a "preview/trailer". Her screen time consists of DIY projects on YouTube and age appropriate Netflix shows. She has no idea what's going on. Maybe I've done too much to preserve her innocence?
I've reached out to friends for advice. I was fortunate enough to receive a recorded conversation between a friend and his seven/eight year old daughter. My response after the exchange was, I wish I had one of you growing up. It was powerful, uplifting and filled with hope.
My daughter has glorious voluminous black curly hair. She has olive skin although I'm Black (Latinx) and her father has an olive tone too. When she was born, one of my first thoughts was, wow, really? nothing. I get nothing. She looks nothing like me.
In school she's already had her racial moments. At home, she has commented, blonde is better. I wish I had straight hair etc. It's already happening, but I framed my argument in the context of self-love, not race.
I've done a disservice to her. I'm disappointed in myself. She's so accepted and loved by her classmates and friends that it makes it difficult to accept that someday she will not be accepted due to ingrained racism. It's been at least, a year's worth of work to get her to accept her hair color and curls. She's five.
This is just a rant. I have nothing else to say except, that this country should really come to terms with their ancestors' actions and the damage that it's done to everyone.
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